TUNES // Lucy Dacus – Forever Half Mast

Post by Misha

I’ve been making my home-for-the-holidays packing list. It’s full of sweet, well-insulated things, like big sweaters with holes snagged by the thorns on the gooseberry bush by the front door, and a bottle of extra strength melatonin to coax sleep out of the snowy stillness. Like a makeup bag that has only chapstick and rosemary oil in it, because what’s the point hiding behind anything if every time I go out it’s just to run into people who only remember the person I was before I left, but who won’t tell me anything about who she was or what she thought she was doing. Like a notebook full of half finished stories whose endings I keep ripping out when they don’t know what they want. Like a gift for everyone except my dad because every time he mentions maybe needing something he goes and buys it for himself a week later, which I have to admit is a very effective brand of self-sufficiency. Like a handful of scattered lyrics to elementary school songs, and a few regrets about never having been the type of person to participate in a school talent show. A big bag of lemons and fresh ginger root and a jar of honey to throw into a steaming mug along with a whole bottle of trials and missteps that have almost stopped mattering except for on the nights that I lay awake thinking about them.

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