Shadowboxing, by Ruth Madievsky
To let grief ride my blood like a school bus.
To say tongue but mean staircase.
To wonder how many times
the suitcase inside me can open and shut.
What it would take to shatter
a wine glass in my hand.
To want desperately to be queen of something.
Queen of crying in coatrooms, queen of waiting
for the medicine to take.
To let the rabid dog of my mind off its leash.
To wear loneliness like a brass knuckle.
What was it between us
that went out like a light?
Why do I feel like an x-ray patient all the time?
To address someone I love
like a knife thrown at a tree.
To let my brain swallow the mouthwash.
To ask the usual questions, whose fingernail, whose condom.
If I throw enough lamps, will you come.
Ohyeahsumi is a twin sister duo from Los Angeles. On their lovely single Daisy, the sisters whisper-croon stories of love, lust, and loss, drawing them out like red wine nights. I’ve been listening to this song a lot this week while savoring Ruth Madievsky‘s book of poetry, Emergency Brake. It’s a wonderful, if sort of painful luxury.
Ohyeahsumi’s debut EP, Your Friends Are Looking For You, is out March 31st on Sports Day Records. Pre-order on Bandcamp.